Hope to own the big ball of yarn

Hope to own the big ball of yarn
Deep inside we're all Cheshire cat, hallucinating and being hallucinated.

Nocturnity

Because it's dark out there.
And there's but the gleaming moon and the world it conceals.
And because it shows you nothing less than what you've always wanted to see- whether it exists or not.

And you are there, alone, to appreciate it all, and wonder, if you have appreciated enough. And to wonder if you will ever be appreciated.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Two Authors... ONE book....


Complication... something no one wants in life... but something that has to poke its nose in..... But as ppl r different.... complication also varies.. n also comes differently to them.... "some" may also like it.... n those "some" may also walk themselves into it... sometimes knowingly.. perhaps cas they want to show they r "stronger".. perhaps cas their appetite to know the truth is more than their appetite to uncomplicate....
I wouldn't say i walked into it... to solve disputes.... i am not that angelic.... i'd say i walked into it without knwong i would wlk so deep into it... n when i began walkin into it.. i didn't stop myself either.... n now that i am into it.... i don't even feel it... though i have a pretty fair idea of the result...
It was long and preachy book..... the rest of the readers however liked it.. it brought spice into their life... the new reader(s) gave it their take and tried to advise the author(s).... the authors took it... so basically.. the older readers that a new taste to the story... the touch of two new authors of the same wavelengths... being represented by the initial authors....
Then came the chapter "Betrayal".... and retired one of the two new readers.... giving up.. it was too much for her.... the second.... was already tired.... long stories had always been a bore for her... The old readers were disappointed.... the old wound had been ripped fresh... and it was too early for it to start healing.... They needed the blood flowing and not drying.... they chose the author with a bigger wound... the wound of "back-stabbing" as she may fancy.... they hit her there.... and put in salt saying it was medicine.... the salt did its work.... this time it was three arrow from one bow.... One.. for the wound got deeper... Two... for the growing likeness turned into competition...though the weirdest from... none understood it to be competition... they thought it was hatred.... but it was competition nonetheless for me.. a competition for being the better... not in the same field though.... and Third...... the ultimate spice and slow heal of the wound....
The victim hated the author and the new reader.... they were so.... so... victorious... she seemed helpless.... she was disappointed with herself... she wanted to kick back....hard... now that things were personal and not professional... she couldn't afford to keep it professional either.... she forgot her new reader... she became the dominating author... she asked her new reader the previous day a little about herself and gaining the confidence that she expected from this reader (and can always cas she will get it) she took the pen and brought her twist to the story...

The readers came back... getting more than expected... but the fellow author and the new readers got what they never expected...... the new reader on the victimized author's side thought that the book had closed.... but no... the book was going through Nocturnity........ at its level best.... and it opened only to close again.....
Long stories never work well.. unless you are a part of it.. and once you become part of it.. they get all the more complicated ...... the new reader was bored..... things were going too preachy and mushy... come on!!! wake up!! its a four year old book now.... bring it to an end. how many more series???!!! .... let your older readers be no more hypocrites... and let your fresh new readers enjoy the better part of your literary works....
What to do?? It falls your duty to support... but how do you support when the author is very egoistic and will not accept anything??? And when another author is as egoistic... but accepts and admits... but just never says.... WHICH is more or less make sit the same thing.... DEAD END is what you name it....
What one does... is talk... Talking had always been and will always be on of the biggest boons to this world... have a look at things from another pair of shoes... the shoes may initially feel uncomfortable and not right for you.. but the more you walk in it... the more comfortable it gets.. doesn't it now??? Knowing things from different places tells you the way to end it.... the solution to the dispute.... but this one had no solution.....
You really believed that didn't you??? Even this one had its solution.... in Nocturnity.... Its solution was "The Last Chapter".. an ending chapter.... THE ending chapter....
It ends pretty simple if you look at it simple.. for one new reader it ends pretty well and that's how it should.... for the entire lot of the old readers.. it ended BAD!!..... the book ends with the quote "Ignorance is Bliss"... ignore it.. u forget it.... even if u don't forget it.. leave it... it gets rusted... it gets rusted... it fades..... not because it really gets rusted... but because another piece of metal.. better.. smoother..shinier.. and with better longevity replaces it.... and EVENTUALLY u forget...
Enough reading for the eyes.... how did the old readers continue help weaving the story for the authors so long??? The new reader thought it was so useless to continue and give the story importance when it wasn't at all needed.... the end had come . some the other new reader who had given up... hoped but never thought would happen... all hoped i guess.. it was a mortal story.. like every other thing in the world is... then why give it so much material... that too of the same kind?? if u had to give ti material... why not of the different kind???
And when things slip and the fellow author does something "attention-seeking".... why do u give her what she whats??? in that way her efforts will diminish and the EVENTUAL end will automatically and EVENTUALLY arrive....

Blessed be the first author... only when you write something to do realize you are not only penning down ur emotions but also giving out a message.. HOW the authors-turned-readers will take it is.. is not something u can control and neither should u try to... and if things come out bad.. well.. even this book will have the last lines as "Ignorance is Bliss" ..............

Nocturnity..


Wondering WHY nocturnity?... well only because.. nocturnal are those beings who roam at night... n night is that time when the world can hear its whispers..... n i am that being who stays up at this time to hear n be a part of those very whispers....
Night... what is night to me? I mean, what CAN night be to anyone? Well... night is darkness... a totally revealingly concealed treasure... everything is in front of you.. before your own eyes.. yet u cant see it.. simply because it is hidden.... You ought to get the perspective of my life now.. it IS to find that thing that most don't even know exist.. that most think is an illusion.... most who think that this world is not an illusion...
Well of course it is.... I of course didn't believe it initially but i do... it is an illusion because all that we do n experience is directly or indirectly on what we think... n what we think is not in the least always true... an anything thought that is untrue is an illusion.... so the world exists on an illusion....
Well, my blog thingy is all about my quest for Nocturnity... the revealingly concealed part.... that exists.. somewhere or the other...